A Secret About Me (Liz)

I'm the type of person that does not like to be alone.  I don't like going shopping, getting my hair cut, going to bed, eating, or sitting in my house alone.  Could it be that I don't feel safe or is it that I'm a people person and must have company?  I'm not sure what it is, actually.

Tim has continued his education since we moved from Winston-Salem three years ago.  He was able to attend Piedmont Baptist College because they offered week modules.  Tim would leave me in Beaufort for a week (alone) since I had to be at work.  Needless to say, those weeks were horrible.  I hated coming home to an empty house after work, cooking for just one person, going to bed alone not having Tim around to protect me if someone broke in, and hearing all the new noises at night that I never heard when Tim was around!  I prayed myself to sleep most nights and was so relieved when Friday finally arrived.

When Tim signed up for Southeastern, I was very excited (at least for the first semester).  He would just be gone for one day of the week and would come home that night.  Little did I know he would be signing up for new student orientation and have to leave for an overnight trip so soon.

This brings us back to the beginning...Sitting in an empty house, cooking for just myself, not having anyone to talk to, going to bed without a hero if someone decided to break in, having to fix random items myself if they break, and honestly, I could go on and on.  Yes, I agree, I'm pitiful!

Though I still don't like being alone, I found a few verses that helped me during these times...

        Psalm 32:7 "You are my hiding place, You shall preserve me from trouble, 

You shall surround me with songs of deliverance."  

Matthew 28:20b "... and lo I am with you always, even to the end of the age."

Even though Tim may have to leave me when he goes to school, God NEVER leaves me.  What a comfort it is to know that I can still feel safe when I am alone.  He will protect me and hide me under His wings.  He will deliver me when trouble is around. 

Thank You, Lord, for never leaving me and for the protection You provide when I feel helpless and alone!

His Way is Perfect

In the past few years, Tim and I have gone through a few difficult trials.  One that still lingers is not being able to have children.  When friends/family announce their wonderful news of expecting, it almost feels like a slap in the face.  I used to become bitter after hearing the news, allowing it to eat away at me till I was miserable.  But with out fail, a verse from my devotions would remind me how wrong that was.  One particular day, Psalm 18:30 was the verse that gave me strength and encouragement.  So for all those out there who are struggling to get pregnant, get frustrated when others are pregnant, and sometimes feel a little bitter towards them... I hope this verse gives you the strength to carry on.

Psalm 18:30 As for God, His way is perfect; the word of the Lord is proven; He is a shield to all who trust in Him.

"His way is perfect!" Why should I be bitter by the fact that I am doing exactly what God wants me to, exactly where God wants me to be?  Because of that, I should trust in Him!  I'm thankful (like a couple of my other friends have said before) that I'm able to spend so much 1 on 1 time with Tim.  We have been able to do things that would not have been possible if we had a baby already. 

Thank you Lord for making Your way perfect.  Help us to rest in You, knowing that Your plan is much bigger and better than our own.